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Saturday, March 31, 2012

End of the Month of March. Time fly so fast. After the break down i have, now i am facing family problem now. This & there make me feel so tired.Kinda of bother with the issus im facing. Hais....Received text from my boss saying that there will be new staff coming on 2 Apr (Monday) for us. Feeling nothing when i see the text.

As age is catching up , im going to 21 year old soon. What i really want ?
How i wan my future to be ? what am i going to do ? Where are the path ? Where am i ? what am i going to do ?

1. $$$$$$$$$$
2. 19 April 2012
3. Mobile Plan
4. HDB
5. My Future
6. My Goal

.i whine today, have u? .

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Hi , i am back after soon long. I am still so stressful as before. Nothing seen to change. Break down last few week. So stress that my tear could not stop dropping. So scare that i might lead to depression one day.

Everyone are very worry of me.Thanks for all your concerm. I would not want to know what are you guys really thinks as i know what am i actually doing. Showing you the letter does not mean anything. I dont want any of your concerm, i dont know what i show you that letter when i should not. Sometime i dont know you can let me tear & affect my mood. But i am learning to step back from everyone of you if i can. Found out that i change alot in the few month.

Towards the HS i also wanna to give up too. why do you always do things half way de. Please do not says something when you are unable to commit yourself. I am very disapppointed with you. As a friend you are fine but once i have to report you i wanna to kill myself so much. Do you know how bad are you in our eyes ?

Wanna pp stay to help you but have you ever though that why there are always in & out ?

How would you want them to help you. Both of us, wanna to get out badly you know? i bet you dont ya .

What are my plan ? What are my goal ? Where is Joanna Toh ? What i want ?

A Path that i will never end

.i whine today, have u? .

Friday, December 9, 2011

Time flew fast three days had just ended. I would like to say many thanks for the opportunity to let me understand the ground work of early childhood work. In these three days i learnt alot of things with the hands on by observing the ins & outs of the centre. Experience to be a childcare teacher really gives me beauitful memories.

.i whine today, have u? .

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I feel so stress up. Alot of unhappy stuff... Work and work Sale and sale Rule and rule This and this That and that . Cant really explain what am i feeling at this monent.
Just like today, feel so stress out. The action you , i feel so stress up.

Suddenly, my mood is so down. Feel so empty lately. Dont understand why am i going to work. So looking forward on friday but it seen like a long days to go. Cant decide what to wear lately. Alot of things in my mind.

The feeling of leaving is back. Ever thought to leave them and move on. But i cant bear to leave them but i really really feel very tired with the management. Was thinking, i dont mind to give up everything i have now. I dont want anything. All i wan is to be myself.

On the other hand, i really learn alot of things from the company. From a young girl who dont know anythings till what i am. If you really know me , you can be the different in me. But im just normal girl.

I am really stuck !!! I dont know what to do. Hais!!! What a day !!! I left my wallet in office again.

.i whine today, have u? .

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Althought today is a tired day. But i have a nice dinner with my colleague. Full with laughter & joys ! I really enjoy the dinner with you all . Gossip all kind of things. I enjoys this kind of accompany. I hope to have more of this.

.i whine today, have u? .

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Seriourly, i was so worries of you when i saw it.. So worries of you, so scare that you will do thing to hurt yourself.

I am total shock to hear from you. At that moment i dont know how to react. Was thinking, i dont understand. Why thing will came like that. How come you are like that ? See like i dont understand you and you are come a stranger to me.

Or you do it for the sick of doing that ? Or you do it for a reason ? Or you have changed ?

It have been bothering me for two days. After my evening run i feel so better. Share it with the god.. But i really feel so good share out with the gods...

.i whine today, have u? .

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Was so looking forwards for my English Exam today. In the end , i screw up with the exam date. Deep in me im am totally disappointed wirh myself. Looking at mistaken i had made. Seriously, i really cant believe i make such a mistake. I really cant forgive myself. Telling myself i will do well for this time round but looking at this . That is totally impossible!!! Whats the point im so good in work but towards study i am such a failure.
Having the smile on my face and deep inside me is crying loudly.
My goal ? My dream ? ( Is been flying away from me ) really cant believe that i mix up the date for my English Exam.

Failure/useless/dumb

.i whine today, have u? .